I don't drink
I am looking for the one word to describe a state or mind or feeling. If you have ever smoked it relates to the stress you feel when you only have 5 cigarettes left in your pack, you are not able to buy any until the next day, and there is no-one you can borrow any from. You have to make them last so you focus on what you will be doing each hour ahead of you. When should you have your last cig, should you save one until morning, what time should you go to bed etc. Most smokers will be able to relate to the feeling it gives you, is it anxiety? apprehension? or is there a better word that fits? When you quit alcohol you finally realise you have been living with this same feeling every day but related to drink. Unlike the smoking analogy however, there are no drinks to count in your packet so you don't realise you are doing the very same thing in working out how drinking will be dictating your life. It is when you experience the massive freedom from losing this feeling that you appreciate it ever existed at all. Suggestions for an apt word please. Many thanks.