Looking at the pictures of the fireball local hero Tim Peake (he is from my home town) returned to Earth in this week reminded me that despite the dangers involved I always wanted to be an astronaut. And hearing a contestant on a BBC quiz describe himself as a Royal Navy Lynx helicopter pilot made me recall that I wanted to be one of those as well. In fact, there are a huge number of jobs I would like to have had, or experiences I would like to gone through but never did. What a shame I never tried at school and then later on spent too much time getting drunk and so never gave myself a chance to do any of these things. So do I look back on my life with sadness and a sense of failure? Anything but!
Negative thoughts and waves of despair are the sort of friends you find at the bottom of a bottle of wine or beer or spirits. I remember sitting night after night as I got steadily more drunk and wishing I had done more with my life, and then never doing anything with the life that I had sitting there with me and desperately waiting to be enjoyed. What a loser I was.
But now when I look back I celebrate all the positive things that have happened to me, and that I have achieved; and despite the fact I am now too old to do many of those things I wanted to do when I was young (such as fly in the Navy or go to space), I plan with a sense of excitement all the things I can still do. I never had time for any of these wonderfully positive thoughts when I was still drinking, the alcohol was always in the way and holding me back.
Now I have such clear and lucid thoughts and such a tremendous sense of freedom - if I close my eyes I can fly wherever I want. It's not quite the same as a genuine trip to the ISS, but you know, the feeling is just the same!
Negative thoughts and waves of despair are the sort of friends you find at the bottom of a bottle of wine or beer or spirits. I remember sitting night after night as I got steadily more drunk and wishing I had done more with my life, and then never doing anything with the life that I had sitting there with me and desperately waiting to be enjoyed. What a loser I was.
But now when I look back I celebrate all the positive things that have happened to me, and that I have achieved; and despite the fact I am now too old to do many of those things I wanted to do when I was young (such as fly in the Navy or go to space), I plan with a sense of excitement all the things I can still do. I never had time for any of these wonderfully positive thoughts when I was still drinking, the alcohol was always in the way and holding me back.
Now I have such clear and lucid thoughts and such a tremendous sense of freedom - if I close my eyes I can fly wherever I want. It's not quite the same as a genuine trip to the ISS, but you know, the feeling is just the same!
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